Buyers' Remorse by Naomi Elana Zener

The room was fuller than usual. More bodies than there were seats. But, this was not unexpected. After all, it was January 1st, the day when people realize their error of their ways—at least for a few days—and set off on a course of resolute action to undo the wrongs of their past.

“Ahem. If everyone could repeat after me?” Leandra asked. The throng hummed in unison.

Please forgive me for the error of my ways,

Give me the sanity and courage to accept the truth,

And the wisdom to know the difference between right and wrong.

“We are all here because in our suffering we are united. We, or our loved ones suffer from an affliction, trauma, or loss. Whether it be cancer, Alzheimers, having been raped, the death of loved ones fleeing Syria, or having fallen on hard economic times, collectively our grief is the tie that binds us together.”

Heads bobbed up and down. Tears flowed. Sighs were exhaled. Comforting hugs were shared. This was a common occurrence. However, there was an air of tension in the room, unlike in previous meetings. Leandra’s intuition was tingling—something big was going to happen today.

“Who wants to be the first to share their revelation today?” Leandra asked. Muffled meek voices, mustering courage to speak, caused the room to vibrate with a bashful hum. A petite, young, twenty-something, woman with blonde hair raised her voice to be heard through the ceiling. “I will.”  The crowd fell silent as she walked to the podium at the front of the room. Leandra handed the woman the microphone before stepping back to let her take center stage.

“Hi, I’m Sandra. And, I have buyer’s remorse.”

“Hi Sandra,” the room replied.

“Six months ago, my friend was raped.” Gasps punctuated the air. “She was at a bar with friends and someone slipped GHB into her rum and coke. She woke up in a hotel room next to a strange man whom she had no recollection of ever meeting. I’ve survived the horrors of what happened to her, but believe that I could’ve prevented it from happening.” Sandra paused. She bowed her head. Leandra approached her, placing her hand on the small of Sandra’s back to reassure her that she was in a safe place. 

“Why do you blame yourself?” Leandra prodded.

“You know those straws? The ones that can detect date rape drugs slipped into drinks?” Leandra nodded her head along with many other attendees. “Well, they were handing them out on campus, and I convinced my friend not to take them.”

“Why not?” a man shouted.

“Because they were invented in Israel,” Sandra whispered into the microphone.

The gasps in the air stole the oxygen in the room.

“If only I hadn’t bought into the Israeli boycott, divestment and sanctions movement, you know, BDS? My friend wouldn’t have been violated. At least now I see the error of my thinking.”

Mouths once agape, closed. Heads nodded knowingly.

“Let’s give Sandra a round of applause.” The room obliged. “You’ve taken the first step.  Now, you’ve come to accept the truth and know the difference between right and wrong,” Leandra advised.

“Yes, the BDS movement is dead wrong,” Sandra exclaimed. A tsunami of applause carried Sandra back to her seat, where she collapsed into a group hug upon her return.

“Who wants to go next?” Leandra probed.

A middle-aged man with salt and pepper hair, emanating a professorial vibe, took to the aisle and marched towards the podium.

“Hello, I’m Gabe. And, I too suffer from buyer’s remorse.”

“Hi, Gabe.”

“I’m a hypocritical former BDS supporter. I came to realize that while I don’t support many actions undertaken by the current Israeli government, in supporting the BDS movement I’ve helped to poison the well, contributing to the rise of anti-Semitism around the world.”

“Why are you a hypocrite?” a random voice shouted from the back of the room.

“Because while I supported the BDS movement, I sent my wife to Israel for treatment of her leukemia. The brilliant minds at Tel Aviv University developed this breakthrough technology—GAGomers—that targets blood cancers with amazing results. My false courage of conviction easily shattered when it became clear that supporting a movement detrimental to my wife’s survival was one that was at odds with logic. Who wouldn’t do everything to save the life of a loved one?”

Some in the room jumped to their feet.

“I did it too for my son!” a man shouted.

“And, I sent my wife to Israel to treat her MS,” a woman cried.

“Who here uses a computer?” Gabe asked.

There wasn’t a single lowered arm in the room.

“And, who here uses a cellphone?”

The wave of arms remained afloat, some still holding their precious appendages. “But, you don’t hear Roger Waters saying he’ll stop using his cellphone or the Internet, do you?” a man shouted. 

“Heck, many parts of the Windows’ operating system were developed in Israel,” Leandra added. “Therein lies the rub. The not-so-dirty secret of the BDS movement is that they don’t actually boycott Israel, but pay lip service to an anti-Semitic ideology.”

Heads slowly began to hang in shame.

“I guess if we are really to commit to supporting the BDS movement, we really have to live in a bubble and give up using pretty much all technology and never access life-saving medical treatments,” Sandra shouted.

The crescendo of buyers’ remorse fervor rose.

“Guess we won’t see any of those BDSers crossing that fancy new bridge in China since it was built by Israelis?” a voice cried out.

“Gai kaken auf in yam!” Gabe cried.

“What does that mean?” someone shouted.

“Let them go take a shit in a lake,” Gabe explained.
 

A heavyset man, dressed in coveralls with the name “Farmer Bill” affixed to his chest, charged the stage, grabbing the mic from Gabe’s hand.

“Speaking of shit, it was bad enough when I had to switch diapers from Pampers to generic because Proctor and Gamble does business with Israel, give up my computer because of Intel, and sell my Volvo, but to see my crops die because I was too stupid to realize that Israeli agro-technology will help me grow my business, no siree bob will I live with the prospect of that possibility,” Farmer Bill stated.

“Everyone in this room is here because we all suffer from buyers remorse. There’s much to be grateful to Israel for: the ApiFix that corrects curvature of spine for scoliosis, the incredible Rewalk robot—the exoskeleton we all saw on Fox’s TV show Glee, and for discovering one of the main reasons for the seizures, memory loss and cognitive impairment that Alzheimer’s patients suffer, which may lead to a cure for the disease,” Leandra advised.

“Don’t forget that Bill Gates has said that Israeli tech research and development will improve the world,” Farmer Bill shouted.

The room roared. “We love Israel! We love Israel!” Gabe launched himself off the stage, crowd surfing the sea of outstretched arms.

Waving her iPad in her hand, Leandra grabbed the mic fervently. “Breaking news folks. Israel may have just found a cure for Melanoma! And, it’s going to start exporting it’s pot to the world. BDSers are fucked!”

The room erupted with thunderous applause.

“It’s time we make things right. Let’s decry BDS publicly, and buy Israeli products openly. And, if we really want to make good on the error of our ways, we should visit the Land of Honey.”

Heads nodded. Members of the Israeli tourism board, who’d been seated at the back of the room, stood up, ready to embrace Israel’s newest tourist hopefuls. Bodies spilled out of their seats in a flurry to the back of the room.

“Thank you all for coming. And, before you leave, please don’t forget to pick up your complimentary Soda Stream on your way out,” Leandra advised.  

© 2017. Naomi Elana Zener. All Rights Reserved.

WINE

When I told hubby I was ready for pregnancy,

Chardonnay, I had to legally separate from thee!

About fetal alcohol syndrome I was forwarned,

So our affair went on hiatus, indefinitely postponed .

Though not a big drinker I missed my libatious lover,

Our relationship one could not put asunder.

We were parted for almost a year,

Whether you'd remember me was my fear.

For nine long dry months how I watched others enjoy you,

To not partake in the nectar of the gods made me feel blue.

Well-behaved was I, avoiding you completely full stop. 

Each time my eyes met you I tasted not one drop.

While I never craved you before my pregnancy,

Your absence made my heart grow fonder of thee.

Upon the departure of my baby from the womb,

Very quickly thereafter our old love returned in full bloom!

With an inconsolable crying baby,

Nightly imbibing is what saved me.  

Only one glass and sometimes only half-full,

Enough to drown out the sobs of which my head was full.

Soon wine with dinner was added to the mix,

Adding a second glass to my nightly fix.

Loving my child greatly but from her screaming wanting to flee!

My sweet baby's colic was making an alcoholic out of me!

Decidedly returning to a teetotaler state,

Commited to no longer being an inebriate.

I poured out the wine removing every drop from my house,

Forced to join me on the wagon was my faithful spouse.

And to combat baby's nightly colic shriek and shout, 

I purchased ear plugs to drown her cries out.

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Supportive Husband

Very proud to become a papa my hubby was he,

Dreaming of parenthood he said since he was three.

Not common for men to admit such a truth,

In his behaviour he promised to offer up proof.

Guarantees of playing and reading with he or she,

And a large sparkling push present especially for me.

Massages were plentiful, with a daily foot rub,

Hubby drawing me bubble baths for frequent soaks in the tub.

When time came and my painful contractions began,

The first breach of contract was made by the man!

“Take me to the hospital at once!” I commanded.

“Please give me one more hour of sleep!” he demanded. 

“This baby is coming whether or not you get of bed!”

“Alright I'll take you now but stop nagging!,” he pled.

In labour the nurse ordered: "Help her breathe! Hold up her leg!"

“Stop taking pictures of my mutilated vagina,” I begged.

After what seemed like an eternity,

In one fell swoop baby came out of me.

Hubby's promise to do everything to please her,

And giving me a diamond watch didn't hurt either,

Overtaken by love for this heavenly angel I was driven,

With our daughter's arrival all his sins were forgiven.

The detente remained in place until the first crisis arrived,

Baby's unending screaming from midnight to five.

“Feed her, hold her or rock her to sleep!” he cried.

I said: “She won't settle down no matter what I've tried.”

“Well figure it out I'm going back to sleep,” hubby announced.

And I said if he did out the door his ass would be bounced.

As weeks wore on in his daddy behaviour there was progression,

But without warning there was a sudden regression.

Daughter's crying went unanswered during his parenting hour,

Me rushing to pick her up losing all control and power.

When it came to dirty diaper changes he became lazy,

I still loved my husband but he was driving me crazy!

And those foot rubs and massages disappeared with the horizon,

I decided to confront hubby before I spiked his coffee with poison.

When baby has eaten, been changed, burped and put to bed,

Then it's mommy time so sanity returns to my head.

If there's time after that then hubby you come in third!

Rolling his eyes at the new rules he flipped me the bird.

“I'm sorry but I need down time for me,” he said.

At which point I promptly shoved him out of bed.

Your days of lounging about putting you first are now over!

If you want to regain your leisure find a four leaf clover.

My new boss lady has turned me in to a human udder,

Thoughts of trying on my jeans makes me shudder.

I need to workout, get a facial or a mani-pedi,

But life revolves around the kiddo not you or me.

Get down with Fisher Price and Baby Einstein,

Pick up the Baby Bullet and put down the beer stein!

Remember your dreams of becoming a daddy?

It took two to tango so baby made us three.

“Fatherhood is more challenging than I expected,” he exclaimed.

His selfish urges he swore would now be tamed.

Primary parenting responsibilities hubby overtook,

Having memorized each rhyme in the Mother Goose book.

In getting our daughter to sleep he became an expert,

Feeding her and not sweating spit up on his shirt.

Pampering me returned as his priority,

Cooking meals and putting away laundry.

A-plus and gold stars earned for his hubby and parenting style,

No more need to keep the divorce lawyer's number on speed dial!

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